Thoughts

Hey I found out that I am in denial, yep. And because Dain didn't do this, i will. Rant time. My mom senses my moping and to make me "feel better" buys me a valentine, which she has never done before. So half way through school realizing that my only valentine was from my mom, got me into grr mood. After grr mood comes the mode where I just say, "Come on really" but to no avail. Then comes silence then...wow I am a loser. All because of a friendly juester from my mom, which whom I'm not mad at, just if Valentines day didn't exist I wouldn't be questioning how much of a soclial person I am and my spot in society. I don't necessarily hate valentines day, I just dont like what it ends up as. Valentines day gives couples a chance to express their love that they usually dont show, but I just hate it that this love is taken by the stores so that the "love" has to be $1000 dollar item thay gets thrown away the day after. Then because of our supposed roles, men buy the gifts and expect nook nook in return, ahh I HATE that. Society is messed up...ah oh well, you deal with what you get and well it could be worse...so thats how it falls. I guess I will go on doing what everyone is expected to do... live our existence. Like Sara said, "Everyone is different, and everyone is the same...." I can't wait to get away and think this weekend.

Oh hey, thats what happend

Hello all, I was sick today because I felt crappy, but putting that aside things seem going alright...maybe. So, just for the one person that doesn't know this, one-act didn't go state and thats alright because we gave it our best shot. I just realized that I turned 17 and didn't have a party, that just wont do, but the thing is I cant find a date for it because this week is some one elses party and also it is Celina's pagent and well what kind of friend would I be if I didn't show? Also the next week I have a church function so that sratches that weekend...ehh, I hope that I dont have to wait till March to have a party. Ohh valentines day is coming soon...that sucs, well I guess its not bad for the budding relationships (Donny/Brianna, Pat/Michelle) but for the rest of us, it's just depressing. Go Consumerism. Well thats about it, tell me if I should have a drama party and when it should be please.




P.S. I feel like the Scrooge of Valentines Day, Bahumbug.